war is within us

from my hell...

2009-03-31T01:05:00.005+03:00

-deamons-

- run -

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- meteorite red -

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re-load...

2009-02-12T19:52:00.007+02:00

-sometimes forgotten things need to be brought back-

- a-rays -

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- gream reaper -

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- old view -

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- fire show -

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- radioactive -

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our old ladies...

2009-02-08T15:17:00.002+02:00

-they call them antiques-

- triangle 1 -

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- antique headache -

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don't play with flames...

2009-02-08T15:11:00.009+02:00

-you might get burned-

- flameflakes -

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- flames of Paradise -

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- flames of Holocene -

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aftermath...

2009-02-08T15:02:00.003+02:00

-before they fall-

- fading -

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- ends light -

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- point spear -

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- rotting -

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dancing buildings...

2009-02-08T14:06:00.006+02:00

-only after an earthquake-

- Fe4[Fe(CN)6]3 -

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- slippery -

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- squares -

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what ???...

2009-01-10T22:58:00.000+02:00

-do you know the answer-

- pulse -

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- drops -

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souls...

2009-01-10T22:26:00.000+02:00

-sometimes they exist-

- maya -

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- the darkness in me -

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300 degree eyes...

2009-01-10T22:10:00.001+02:00

-so you can see better-

- vast -

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- Apocalyptic Communism -

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- 3 paths -

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- a view from deads -

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places in my voidness...

2009-01-10T04:23:00.000+02:00

-somewhere you can find me-

- a field of happiness -

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- dying sun -

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- M -

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what my mind creates...

2008-09-18T04:10:00.000+03:00

-a brief journey in the rivers of my mind-

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photo from gabriela

photo from gabriela

who i fell for...

2008-08-30T03:38:00.001+03:00

what i fear most...

2008-08-30T03:27:00.001+03:00

what i run from...

2008-08-30T03:23:00.000+03:00

The road to heaven…

All around
Darkness
You can almost feel it
You run
Corners
Filled with murderers
Ruffians
Squatted there, waiting
Someone to kill
Someone who dawdles earths time
Who can’t be more good
Not even than decaying leaves
Fallen from ages
Past the corner
You run
Trying to avoid your death
Singing
So your soul is at peace
Not conquered by fear
Deceive your mind
So your heart can beat
Still although in your pace
You run
The sky is dark violet
No cloud thou no star
Where is the moon?
You run
Tears surround the edge of your eye
From the wind
Hitting your face
They hopelessly fall
So hard, so heavy
They make a crater
In the thick cement pavement
You run
Think…
Wipe them off
They can trace you
Wipe them so hard your face begins to swell
Blood in your hands
Where did it come from?
There is no time to see
You run
You legs, like an insatiable woman
Want more, and more, and more
Road to hit, to run
You can’t stop now
Not so close to the end
But whose you don’t know
Yours or the roads???
Your lungs are aching
Pain you can’t consider
Cause it’s your fault
You run
You hit your forehead
So great the pain
Tears of joy come out
Not worried anymore
They evaporated already
The warmth of the ray that just hit you
Burns your eyes now
You run.
Open your chest to the wind
So it can hit it too
Heat comes down
Your neck red from blood
Now coagulated
You can see it
The ball of fire ahead of you
Fighting with the dark behind you
You laugh, someone is fighting for you
You’re not inutile in this world
Someone cares
You run..
Open your arms
Fists no more now
Just wind
And fingers poring rays
You can see the end
You speed up
But you can’t
You can’t feel the legs anymore
So much for the effort
NO!!!
You run…
All that’s left of you
Is a hollow silhouette
Doing nothing more
Than filling the dark with more … dark
You see now
The ball of fire
Taking shape
A beautiful thing never seen
Pulsating rays
The beautiful might of seraphim
You run….
The rays have reached the toes
The dust following you illuminated
You see the edge
You are ready now
Go, went there
You make the jump
Finally no more running
You jumped now
The thrust taken
All needed to reach the seraphim
You don’t dare look down
You don’t care what’s down
All you need is in front of you
Thou, it’s too far for you to reach
You can’t believe it
All you have done it’s not enough
The jump stops
Not even wanting
Your head goes down
And what to see
All around
Darkness
You can almost feel it
Only a red spot in thy middle
Contrasting the pitch black
As you approach to what you think the end is
You keep falling
As much as the red enlarges
Covering the black with divine flames
Burning your open chest
You cry, and cry, and cry
Thou no tear is seen out of eyes
Rocks come to vision
Sharp, like teeth
As they where made
Appropriately to cut you open
You close you eyes
Almost acted like it was a dream
Then it comes…
The fraction of a dream second
That lasts forever
It’s said that you see your life flash…no
It lasts so you can more deeply, strongly
Feel the pain
First your open chest
Cut just on the left
Just near the heart but no in it
After comes the sharp cut
Just in your shoulder
Cut … again just in your legs
Ah the damned legs
That brought me here
Cut … just in the arms
Those arms that deceived me
Made me think I could fly
Done of cutting
Your head rests at peace
A painful peace hanging
Where no more cuts could be made
Like on purpose, not to kill you
To get over with, soon
The sharpness of the rock
Surpasses the unimaginable
So clean, your blood flows down
Like water on metal
The mirror allows you to see
Still, that light
Now only a star
You scream
No one there to hear you
But it wasn’t a help scream
You grab the rock
Cut your hands with it
When trying to pull yourself against it
The chest cut comes to you throat
You can’t pull anymore
Your hand released the marveling stone
Your head still hanging
Droplets of blood mixed tears fall from your hair
Making a disturbing noise
When in touch with the swamp just risen
Circles crush waves into the stone
Cracking it into pieces
All heard next is the booming sound
Of your decadent body
Not worthy even for garbage
Falling into the sea of blood
Making a wave so huge
It reaches the upper edges of the hole you died in
Only a drop, a little tiny drop
Falls down on her hand
The seraphim hand
Long has passed since that day
And still if carefully seen
You can see in the seraphim hand
Like a black spot sun has
The tiny drop of your blood
Obscuring the seraphim light
That so powerful light
You can see the seraphim
Gone mad, not good for a divine
Asking herself
What have I done…?
I killed someone………
Only a pace away, from the edge
And you can’t feel the warmth of her rays
That time ago reached the edges of the known world
Only a pace away, you forget of her
That time ago haunted your memories
Only a pace away,
You are dead as much as I am………

what hangs on my neck...lace...

2008-08-30T03:09:00.000+03:00

and the rest...

2008-08-30T02:42:00.000+03:00

peace...is not overrated you think...think again...cause there are no
screams when the sky is clear from clouds of smoke, our forests
still stand, our buildings are occupied, and the nests have birds in...

is that all...
...guess what...!!!
no...!!!
you underestimate war and its effects...you underestimate the
pitch black once the sun disappears...you underestimate the
missing voices crowding the streets...you underestimate the cities
we once lived in get ruined... you underestimate the craziness
of a human mind and overrate one fools mind...think again in doing so...
it might be too late the next time you use your mind again...

even for fool ideas...even for brilliant ideas...my advice ...guess again...

my self...

2008-06-16T04:15:00.003+03:00

doing everything to be noticed, my shallow fears come true,
my soul wanders closed in a rubbish corpse ,
all i have attempted to become turned against me ,
all the world means to me has faded,
angels have turn into devils ,
tearing my already dead soul apart ,
guess i'll be the one to encounter death with open eyes,
guess i'll never see someone saving me ,
guess i'll be ages dead before you even notice.........

trying to make an effort to come out with my own forces in a place where everything is possible, try not to me dead by the piercing eyes of the b)*(& all around me, tyring to devour me, in a single bite...

Death shall i see as you rip my soul with your jaws and tender me with your paws...

R.I.P.